With 20lbs+ weight increase over the course of 6 months, F*** it! I will cry if I want to…
Having made a conscious decision to work on my ADD holistically, after it was suggested that I then needed to up my meds to 3, the 3rd pill to combat symptoms from the 2 others, 20lbs of weight has slowly crept on.
Admittedly there was a certain amount of avoidance to change eating or fitness habits, cos for both I’m not your typical trans fat couch potato sloth. However, as some of you who check in to my feeds from time to time, I like a quick fix, as well as don’t shun from hard work.
Any way I took up running after 2 years of a hiatus & I must say I wasn’t particularly a fan then, however in the last 4 weeks I’ve been running with Ridiculous Body Awareness. As a product designer, I process the information given to me differently than most and thus the yoga insight I have added to my runs, helps me run with freedom & ease and to be quite honest, I’m running 3/5/7 miles within the matter of 2 weeks & it is simply RIDICULOUS. I can’t believe it myself, everyone keeps saying it’s because I’m healthy or I do yoga. Both are somewhat true, I’ve been relatively healthy ever since I came to the US, I’ve been keeping fit for the last 16 years and have added yoga for the last 6 years, however I was never able to run more than 4 miles without a huge huff and puff. It wasn’t until last month that I can say I run without batting an eyelid at 5/7/8 mile runs, not fast, but as my husband tried to console me this morning, as I was bawling my eyes out, “8 miles is still 8 miles, no matter how easy you found it.”
Some of you may want to learn about how I can seemingly be so flippant about running 5/7/8 miles with freedom & ease and that’s all my Ridiculous Body Awareness from practicing yoga on Plank Yoga Mats, however I am too upset to share about them at the mo’…
As I cry it’s not fair and feel sorry for myself, you may say one or some of the following…
- I’ve plateaued
- it’s not the weight, it’s the BMI or
- I look great or I hide it well or
- it doesn’t matter it’s how you feel inside or
- it’s reality etc…
- All of that I can accept and process graciously.
However what I cannot accept and it sucks incredibly to have really worked on my fitness and conscious of my eating and then to find I put WEIGHT ON… WTF, WTF, WTF… Do you really get how much it sucks, it sucks an f*****g lot…
Here are the facts:
- 3 mile run @ 11minute miles
- 1 minute 33 second #PlankADay
- 90 minute Baptiste Power Yoga Class
- Brunch – Dim Sum
- Dinner – Parma Ham & Charcuterie on Bread
- 8 mile run @12.25 minute miles
- 2 X 1 minute #PlankADay
- 45 Minute Post Cardio Recovery Class by Elena Brower care of Yogaglo.com
- Breakfast -Tomates from a left over pasta meal.
- Brunch celebration – 1.5 empandas, some Spanish Tortilla, chicken thigh, salad and fruit.
- Dinner – Burger, ½ portion of fries, ½ portion of Ice Cream Smoothie
Admittedly the food consumption isn’t the most nutritious, even though I say I eat relatively healthy. However I know for me, there was a commitment to cut down on the quantity from what I typically would eat. So you tell me if you wouldn’t cry like a big fat blubbering whale, if you’d done this amount of physical activity and were mindful about the portion sizes of the food consumption, too…
What words of powerful, motivating wisdom work for you, cos for me I am completely demoralized… I chose SAUSAGES yesterday, love to eat them, don’t like to look like ’em, though…
As much as I’m completely demoralized, I also know that it’s up to me what to do next… So my next 2 action steps, is call a wellbeing coach, cos we all need a gentle push and also see a doctor, at least to rule out that there isn’t anything medically going on, cos I do think that amount of fitness activity with mindful portion control, to gain weight, it just doesn’t add up.
WHG, an expert in all things, shoes + heels + fitting yoga into a busy lifestyle…
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